It's been a while.

Wow. It feels good to be back after like.. 3 years?
I can't help but flinge everytime i read certain posts from my archive.
Damn, i was such a little girl. Maybe in another 3-5 years time,
I'll look back at this post and think the same thing.

It's funny how everything has changed; school, age, dressing
but somehow i'm still facing the same love crisis. Wow.
Some things don't change. But i'm so glad i've made it this far.
I've never fathomed that I'll be able to make it to NP's Mass Comm
when i was taking my O's.

I'm so thankful for everything that has happened to have
got me to where i am right now. I've made a bunch of good friends here.
A semester passed by, just like that. We're gonna be splitting classes soon.
I have to admit, i dread this splitting of class phase. It's just so sad.
I came to love my classmates and this special clique: Kambings.
It's a malay word for Goats. Because goats look blur and we are blur.
Also my other group: wRong Pte Ltd.
Guess where the name was inspired from.
I've grown to love them so much.. i don't ever want to split.

I've met so many new people in school.
I went for FOC: Freshman Bonding Camp, join our school's
hip hop dance crew: NRA (New Revolving Age),
got to know more people around FMS. So many pretty and handsome
faces.. Everywhere. FMS girls are gorgeous.

But i've made this friend, we really clicked on the first day of school.
We hung out, got to know each other better and did work together.
I have to admit, i really liked his company. It was so... comfortable.
I shared my problems and stuff with him.. We could talk about anything.
We became really close and i adored our relationship.
I wanted time to pause right at that point and let us savour
the joyful moments we had together.
But at that time, i was still thinking of someone else.. It ruined everything.
And then i realized it's really time to move on, that someone ain't coming back.
When i moved on, this special friend i had was gone. Not literally but,
we became distant. Not close anymore. I screwed up.
It's so hard to get someone's trust back when you've let them down before.
I really want to tell him that i'm sorry but i have no guts to :'(
But i truly regret and i wish time can rewind.

Anyway, it's the holidays now and i'm going to start working next week.
I really enjoyed writing this post. It's been so long since i've updated.
It's so refreshing. It's like, this blog is my personal diary.

Will post soon xoxo.